Because I never was who you thought me to be.
I put on a mask and thought I would dance a little.
For you, I knew what made you happy back then.
I knew I was "loved" then.
I put on the world's best show, just for you.
Even a second of your attention would mean one less tear that night in bed.
And you accepted me,
A long as I fit the character mold of the day.
But I was fading away, drowing inside.
You missed knowing the person you were burying under the sand.
She meant a great deal to me.
A brain, a musician, a conscience, a human being.
Back then I didn't know I was missing that same person as well.
You chose who I was and what I would be.
I want to know,
who am I.
But I have a feeling you didn't know back then either,
Because, deep down inside,
I never was who you thought me to be.
I’m too shy to be loud, too open to be silent. My thoughts are chaos. I get lost in what I’m saying. I’m too random to follow your words. Words are too 'double-sided' for me to understand your stories. I see too much and understand too little. And God made me this way for a reason, His reason. And to be lost in constant confusion is the most magnificent state ever. God made things to be enjoyed and incomprehensible. After all, how can we be in wonder of something that we can comprehend?
Hey there missy
ReplyDeleteSo very glad to see you here!!!
Yeah I love reading your poems and truly belive you can be a published poet
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WOW that just came to me!!
Happy to have you here!!!
I have been watching lifetime movie all afternoon.